Life

All of you know by now that our friend, Sue Qing Wen passed away during a dive over Chinese New Year weekend. I was probably one of the last of us who got to hear his voice before his demise.

He called me on Friday night to tell me of the dive that would take place on saturday, possibly stretching till sunday. The last thing he said was that he'll see me on sunday if the dive did not drag. Therefore, i wasn't too surprised that i didn't see him on sunday. More so because i came in late and left early, to my shame. It was only on tuesday night that i got wind of his accident from Isaac. The only regret i have is that i did not put more effort into keeping him with us to affirm his salvation after i did san fu with him, during which he seemingly accepted Christ. But it was too easy, too quick. His actions and words after that seemed to show that he was probably not that serious about accepting Christ back then.

Is he safe? I don't know and i can't do anything for him anymore.

Even now i am shocked not because he left so soon but rather that i, being a Christian have so little of Jesus inside of me- so little love. I do pray that God would slowly transform me to be like his son. To love everyone around us. But i feel numb. Feels the same towards Church stuff too. There's so much to be done. Yet the workers are so few. Then as time goes on, my expectations go down too. How long would this downward spiral go? I can only continue to pray to God for solutions and inspiration, for all of us.

So what do we get out of this incident? Do we have non-Christian friends who are closer to us? Do we care for their souls? If we don't, let's pray for passion. Passion for them, passion for God, and towards one another. We are made to work and rule the earth. But we are made, more importantly, as i think i pointed out in my last entry, for relationships.