thoughts

i am just wondering should i very much blog on a class blog. just on some thoughts on how the bonds in our class gt "loosen up" within the years. its just some random thoughts.no offence to everyone ya!?Let's just say 6 years ago..when our class was a seperated class as Daniel and Joshua grps. From the time we entered the "senior" youths class. a merger of class took place..and fellowship started blah blah..we have so much fun together..the sharings everything...soon..one by one left. i dont know what's really wrong with our group..the feelings is wierd..we used to having different care groups during fellowship..and ya. we shared with specific people....now when we are one whole group...we tend to share and open up ourselves..so much things happen from the beginning of this year..from the death of brother Qing Wen..and the many that left the group...are our bond really there?

Of course..as time passed by, our bonds was tested again..it was ups and downs..we have such wonderful great CGls.but are we really sharing our lives? when we have grp outing..how many of us..take the time off to come? The bible says“Do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink, or about your body, what you will wear” (Matthew 6:25) so spending for 2 hours for a simple grp gathering really takes so much of our time? i know its a bit crude to say all this..cos i may be wrong or my perspective or my thinkings may not be what everyone thinks...are our bonds today yes..today till now really close..looking at the number of ppl coming for peixun..from a number that could fill mgt room 1 (20) to only 8 ppl..

I do not know what's happening to everyone.why cant we be like last time..like having being close..and able to share..i lost this feeling for quite some time..really...

its a cruel truth that i have written..but i think we should all think about it..especially when we are going to be a seperate fellowship from others..( thinking of it..it hurts me...) i will missed fellowships on sat...

Evolution? Big Bang? All that stuff vs the bible?

Evolution? Big Bang? All that stuff vs the bible?

Hey, found out from my friend's church that there're 4 P.H.D. guys coming down to Singapore to talk about how all the "scientific theories" weighed against what the bible says about creation. I think it'll be very very enriching because listening to 1 of the guys sermons already helped me clear up some stuff.

I think it's also a fantastic opportunity to drag along some of our non-christian friends who happen to be very scienc-y or rational, u know the type that says "show me proof!" to these talks.

Date: 4-6 October 2007
Venue: St Andrews Cathedral
Programme Outline: http://downloads.creationontheweb.com/pdfs/csc07_program.pdf
Website: http://creationontheweb.com/content/view/5204/

I'm definitely going to 2 or 3 of the talks. They're not free though, otherwise it'll be cool to listen to everything.

Sharing

Hi.. I got something to share with you guys..It's about what happen recently and hope it act as an encouragement to trust God more. I Thank God for a place in Uni and the successful application of disruption from NS. I started to asked about the distruption thingy from my PNS side quite early but was then told that I cannot send in too early so have to wait till around june. The next time I asked, they said they need the Letter of Acceptance from the Uni which I already gave it to them, so no choice got to bring another copy to them.. So finally I got the noticed on the 20th July and served my last duty on 30th night till 2400hrs.. then dekit and return my police issued items on the 31st.

The other thing is that my grandma actually won a laptop from the company's lucky draw.. it's a third price.. It was just nice that I needed a laptop for Uni.. and on top of that I got a place in hostel.. Yup application was successful.. then on the 30th night shift.. my mdm bought me burger king as a treat and send me home after my work, as she is also working till 2400hrs that day.. All I can say is that I'm blessed.. yup. Actually if you were to ask me, I believe that I take everything for granted, and only noticed those stuffs that I dun have, such as girl-friend, capable, be it studies or socialising with ppl.. But I noticed that if I were to look at those fine little details, I still can find things to praise God for, as everything is under His control..It’s just something I found out recently.. and I think I have to paste it somewhere on my head to remind myself..

Guess what, today I went to Uni to take my English qualifying test to see whether I need to add one more English module to my course of study, as my O level English not that good.. I was surprised and so happy to see a few of my poly coursemates.. they also taking mechanical engineering.. I was so happy really.. Because I was so scare.. direct 2nd yr it’s going to be tough, and I got friends whom I can ask for help in studies.. Yup really.. Cheers..

Resentful

Hi… if you have noticed, my presence in church is dropping.. To let you all know, it’s actually the fact that I’m being resentful for various reasons.. Mostly I believe is that I did not manage to find a gf =s and partly I felt lonely and longing for a person whom I can really relate to, share my life and my thoughts and inner feelings with, as in a close friend.. Still hoping to find him/her =/ then I started to go to some churches that is nearer to home.. hoping to find another place that I can belong to.. This act is what I think most men will do when they face some problems and they will be likely to hide in their cave working out this problem.. you can try to talk to them, you will feel like their heart is not there.. they are trying all their might to solve or rather for me (think) about the problems.. Ya I begin to slowly let myself disappear… an act of being resentful..then on the other hand, wishing someone would have just cared about me.. hmm…

But then on that Friday nite, 27th july, the dinner with my pei xun’s class.. hmm felt a bit kinda sad that the state where our class or fellowship is becoming.. I think most ppl are burdened with sch and church.. and then I’m doing nothing.. I felt like doing something and be a part too.. But part of me just want to hide in the shadows and not to be seen.. I hope I’ll get back to things and start to do my part.. be it any small part in church..