Resentful

Hi… if you have noticed, my presence in church is dropping.. To let you all know, it’s actually the fact that I’m being resentful for various reasons.. Mostly I believe is that I did not manage to find a gf =s and partly I felt lonely and longing for a person whom I can really relate to, share my life and my thoughts and inner feelings with, as in a close friend.. Still hoping to find him/her =/ then I started to go to some churches that is nearer to home.. hoping to find another place that I can belong to.. This act is what I think most men will do when they face some problems and they will be likely to hide in their cave working out this problem.. you can try to talk to them, you will feel like their heart is not there.. they are trying all their might to solve or rather for me (think) about the problems.. Ya I begin to slowly let myself disappear… an act of being resentful..then on the other hand, wishing someone would have just cared about me.. hmm…

But then on that Friday nite, 27th july, the dinner with my pei xun’s class.. hmm felt a bit kinda sad that the state where our class or fellowship is becoming.. I think most ppl are burdened with sch and church.. and then I’m doing nothing.. I felt like doing something and be a part too.. But part of me just want to hide in the shadows and not to be seen.. I hope I’ll get back to things and start to do my part.. be it any small part in church..